arienettelyn's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- you're absolutely intoxicated by your own mouth running in circles when things are so very wrong on such a large scale, i've found it extremely helpful to focus on things that would be small and insignificant to others, but mean the world to me. yes, little things can make me happy. like today i skipped my music class and sat in the humanities building to write. there were 2 guys refilling the vending machines. one of them was a small guy, about 22 or 23, and the other was probably in his late thirties, and kind of big. he was also mentally handicapped. he asked tons of questions, didn't really know what he was doing, and it was kind of obvious he was new, and also very lucky to have gotten the job in the first place. the younger guy was incredibly patient, and extremely nice. the older guy asked him what to put in the 75 cent slot and he said you can put whatever you want in there. and the guy said anything? and he said yeah, anything you want. the dude was SO excited. it just...it really made me feel good inside. something silly like that. i think, when it really comes down to it, people are a pretty evil race, driven by greed. but an individual person is NOT evil. most of us are pretty beautiful, in our own ways. i know it's kind of weird to think that no one is a bad person, but with very few exceptions, this is what i believe. even the people who we believe to be "evil", i think, are trying to do what they think is right. whether it's right or not, i truly believe that a person will do these things because he believes the world will be a better place if they are done. this has gotten all serious and philosophical, so i'll change topics now... another litle thing that made me happy was the package from saddle creek waiting for me in my mailbox when i got home. it had the faint cd, a note from jeff and....*drumroll* A STICKER!!! i had to dig through the lil styrofoam peanuts to find it but it was there. a nice red faint sticker. can't wait to listen to the cd. ahh saddle creek has made so many of my days much happier:) erin was reading this today at the campus. she read my 102 facts and now thinks i'm weird. the ones that bothered her the most involved my not believing in god, thinking guys making out is sexy, seeing no problem with homosexuality...and i think there was more but i can't remember. she then felt the need to ask me if i was gay. because, of course, i'd have to be gay to not think gay people are the scum of the earth. and yes, it would make total sense that i get turned on by guys making out with each other when i'm a lesbian. yep, she sure figured me out! oh yeah, then, since it says i don't believe in god, she was like, what, do you believe in satan? yeah...makes no sense to me either. if i don't believe in god, of course i don't believe in satan! that's ridiculous. then she said 2 girls making out is "normal" but 2 guys making out is "disgusting". double standard! she said some girls can't get what they need from a guy, so they turn to girls. so i said maybe some guys cant get what they need from a girl. she said then they have a problem. okay... i got an a+ on my lord of the rings paper. i think i'm doing my research paper on tolkien, since my teacher likes the idea. american idol last night was a waste of everybody's time. they made it SEEM like they were gonna vote someone off, they even narrowed it down to trenyce and carmen, then they were like....no, we're not eliminating anyone this week, the votes just count towards next week. bastards! but clay was safe anyway, so i'm down with that. erin wants go see third eye blind with me. i think that's exciting/scary. i get to see conor in 27 days :). and 28 days. haha. umm...i think i settled on just going to see conor twice. i sound like a fucking spoiled brat to get worked up over how i cant go to all the concerts. so yeah...ill see my conor and my third eye blind and be perfectly content, because i know i'm lucky. and then in the summer....lollapalooza and warped! yay! these entries just keep getting longer and longer... 1:04 p.m. - 2003-04-03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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