arienettelyn's Diaryland Diary

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if this is sight, i'd rather be blind

i'm feeling pretty depressed right now, so here's a depressing song. it's really beautiful too, you should listen to it.

azure ray - november

so i'm waiting for this test to end
so these lighter days can soon begin
i'll be alone, but maybe more carefree
like a kite that floats so effortlessly

i was afraid to be alone
now i'm scared thats how i like to be
all the faces, none the same
how can there be so many personalities
so many lifeless empty hands
so many hearts in great demand
and now my sorrow seems so far away
until i'm taken by these bolts of pain

but i turn them off and tuck them away
til these rainy days that make them stay
and then i'll cry so hard to these sad songs
and the words still ring, once here now gone
and they echo through my head everyday
and i don't think they'll ever go away
just like thinking of your childhood home
but we can't go back, we're on our own

but i'm about to give this one more shot
and find it in myself
i'll find it in myself

so we're speeding towards that time of year
to the day that marks you're not here
and i think i'll want to be alone
so please understand if i don't answer the phone
i'll just sit and stare at my deep blue walls
until i can see nothing at all
only particles some fast, some slow
all my eyes can see is all i know

but i'm about to give this one more shot
and find it in myself
i'll find it in myself...

5:59 p.m. - 2003-04-04

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